A couple months back I was invited to a family members kid party. He was turning 7 and there were a bunch of 7 years old running around the house while the adults talked about how tired, busy and crazy being a parent is. I couldn’t relate because I’m not a parent yet so I decided to do what I would normally do at any party, grab a beer and sit off to the side until someone felt bad that I was sitting alone and came to talk to me.
When I went to get a beer the host of the party (a family member) advised me that we shouldn’t be drinking until after 5:00 pm when the kids leave with there parents which is then the real adult party will start. My response was “are you fucking kidding me?” This prompted my family to scold me again for cursing at a kids party. Who knew there were so many rules at kids birthday parties?
It was then that I realized I curse a lot and don’t even realize that it’s not a good thing to do in some situations however it is part of who I am.
I’m from New Jersey where every other word out of my parents, grandparents, aunts, uncles, friends mouthes are either fuck, shit, asshole, bitch, you name the curse word they’ve said it. I, as well as my friends and family have grown up in that type of environment.
It’s just part of my vocabulary and I’m not going to stop being me. I will try to filter myself when I’m at a 7 year olds party however I’m pretty sure all of those 7 year olds have heard there parents say these words before. Maybe once I have kids I’ll learn how to filter myself better but I’ll never stop being me.
It’s part of who I am and as much as it might embarrass some people I’m not going to change. I lived that life where I would change to make people feel more comfortable and I wound up miserable. Not doing that again.
Do you have a problem filtering yourself? Are you being your authentic self? Let me know in the comments.